it's been one of those weeks that makes you really reflect on life. i love my life. there are things about my life that i look at and ponder, "how did i deserve that?!" on a daily basis i have to send up that unspoken thanks for the things that make my heart swell to the point i am sure i am not going to be able to breathe the next breath.
and then there are those things that i have, on a daily basis, a "headbutting" situation. i try to figure out how my life can be so damn good and i still have these crappy things wedging their way into my happiness. now i could spend all evening listing out the stupidities i deal with and the annoyances that are like nails on a chalkboard in my brain...but that isn't what this is really about.
i have decided to rationalize what it is that goes on in my world. or perhaps i really have figured it out. my life is just too damn good. i bought into things like "the secret" and had things actually happen for me! i am surrounded by people who love me and if i asked them, would take off the pants they are wearing and hand them over - regardless of the location. i have a baby who has started showing me that she actually loves me. i have a husband who, although he acts like he doesnt' really like this, loves my bossiness and lack of tact.
so here is my rationalization...things are soo good in my life that the being who is has decided to throw some yucky challenges my way. just to see if i can handle it. which of course i can cause, well...helllo!!!...look at where i come from. and i guess...i guess i'll put up with it for the time being.
but soon enough i'll grow tired of it...rant and rave about how tough life is and then i'll pick myself up from the floor and figure it out again that life is way too good to not pay attention.
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